This is who I am now. A lie. I have chosen to live a lie, and I can't admit it to those that I love. That is why this blog was created. With my husband, I am taking a journey away from what I have known to be the center of my life for 23 years: the mormon church.
This is a journal of my thoughts, feelings, frustrations, and confessions as a mormon who has fallen away but must stay in the church.
Falling away from the church and finding myself in the real world.
Me and my Blog
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this is just a place for me to expand on my thoughts, most having to do with my feelings about the mormon church and my own self-discovery as I try to find my place as a non-believer who (for various reasons) cannot completely remove myself from the organization.
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this is just a place for me to expand on my thoughts, most having to do with my feelings about the mormon church and my own self-discovery as I try to find my place as a non-believer who (for various reasons) cannot completely remove myself from the organization.
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hymnbook
"This life is too short/
to live it just for you..."
"I remember the days when I was so eager to satisfy you/
And be less then I was just to prove I could walk beside you/
Now that I’ve flown away I see you’ve chosen to stay behind me/
And still you curse the day I decided to stay true to myself..."
--Nelly Furtado
"I’m on the outside/
I’m looking in/
I can see through you/
See your true colors..."
--Staind
"They love to tell you 'stay inside the lines'/
but something's better on the other side..."
--John Mayer
"Did I ask too much/More than a lot
You gave me nothing/Now it's all I got
We're one/But we're not the same
Well we /Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say/Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple/Love the higher law
You ask me to enter/But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on/To what you got
When all you got is hurt"
-U2
"I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you"
"I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter"
-Linkin Park
to live it just for you..."
"I remember the days when I was so eager to satisfy you/
And be less then I was just to prove I could walk beside you/
Now that I’ve flown away I see you’ve chosen to stay behind me/
And still you curse the day I decided to stay true to myself..."
--Nelly Furtado
"I’m on the outside/
I’m looking in/
I can see through you/
See your true colors..."
--Staind
"They love to tell you 'stay inside the lines'/
but something's better on the other side..."
--John Mayer
"Did I ask too much/More than a lot
You gave me nothing/Now it's all I got
We're one/But we're not the same
Well we /Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say/Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple/Love the higher law
You ask me to enter/But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on/To what you got
When all you got is hurt"
-U2
"I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you"
"I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter"
-Linkin Park
1 comment:
Wow. I totally know how that feels.
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